Black Desert Online

The most anticipated game of 2016!
And, of course I started playing this too. My never ending search of commitment and need of feeling part of a game/guild came to an end. Well, that's what I thought anyway. Truth is, I started playing this on my own. I'm actually kind of a loner when it comes to these games. When I'm not head of a guild (or any high rank) I don't feel like I fit in. I have trouble adjusting. I guess I just want to feel needed... Or something like that.

For a while, that was fine. I was waiting on a friend to invite me to a guild. But soon I started feeling left out. It took a long time before he even invited me, because of his own grinding with parties they made on beforehand. You see, there were different packages you could buy. My friend and a bunch of people I know got the most expensive pack and had a 3 day head start on us. Before the game launched they discussed tactics etc on what to rush. I'm not a rusher, so I was left out on this.

After a while, I got bored of grinding. It's just not my thing. My friend helped me out, but he was complaining about me being unable to keep up (I kinda died alot in the process) and him having to spend alot of gold on pots. I get that, I really do. I'm just not a hardcore grinder and without good gear you just die if you're not careful. As a novice witch (really I didn't even know my combos yet), I had a hard time keeping up with a full fledged ranger that knew exactly what to do and when to do it. Anyhow, of course I was grateful. My friend told me to grind more, for silver (the in-game money). But I just couldn't do it. I was alone all the time, undergeared and it was just nagging on me.

I went for a knowledge hunt instead. Doing quests, talking to NPCs to raise amity etc. Somewhere along the quests I got lost. I went back to grinding every now and then because I didn't know what to do anymore. Black Desert is huge. It has a huge amount of content, and you get overloaded with quests. As a new player this was very intimidating. I didn't realize it would. Anyway, nobody was my level, nor did they want to make a second char to level with me. I was stuck on quests, grinding got boring, gathering took too long imo, so I started farming. (Yes I tried alot lol. I just love the diversity!)

By then I had several chars I could switch on, and I found out that knowledge is shared amongst family members (your chars). This really excited me. I started to give all of my chars a different job in the game, and only kept a few to level with. Those I also used to grind knowledge with (you get knowledge on mobs after killing a random amount). I was fascinated, but the soloing got the best of me. It just got less and less interesting. Even more so because of my personal situation, the guild started falling apart... I fell back into depression and sought other things to do.

I went back to Black Desert a while after, when I found out my new boyfriend-to-be (we werent really together yet), was also playing it. We made a new guild and we played together sometimes. He is a hardcore grinder, so we also had several chars we played solo and the game was more interesting to me. However, I was of course much more interested in him at that point. We played more League of Legends than BDO, so again it died on my end (also because my farm got removed due inactivity T^T). He also didn't play it much anymore (just logging sometimes for event) after he moved in with me.

Just recently, BDO launched a new class. This got him playing again and he asked me to join him. He has a job like every normal person, I dont. But thats good, because now I can actually keep up with him! xD I still get distracted alot in the game, but they added some new content (daily rewards based on levels, life levels and knowledge) which actually gets me going! We dont really play together that much now, but hes with me in the same room. I think that's what I was missing, an actual person next to me playing games. Just like me. Just so I'm not alone, even if I play solo. I love it like this.

We dont really have much people online in the guild. That's because they work too, they have their own lives filled with gfs, kids, family, work, hobbies and other stuff. I feel connected again. And it feels good. They all know I have a limited hearing and they're okay with it. It means alot to me, to actually be accepted. This is what a community does. And I hope we can make even more connections with other gamers. Gamers like my bf, bold and hardcore. Gamers like me, insecure, at times and just a little different from the usual. And of course... Gamers like you!

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